Recovering...

Yea, this is a new blog that I might update frequently in the future.

Whether this is for the long term is anyone's guess, but as I am a fiercely private person, this is definitely not everything I have to offer that's in my mind, sorry. Still, I open this blog so that I can share whatever's in my head that I'm ready to put out.

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I am slowly recovering from Thursday's meltdown. I can't believe I totally lost it for programming the whole of Thursday night, and I ended up spending the whole night watching Trauma Team videos and drawing Tomoe (she's cute ne~~~~~~ *facepalm* what am I doing OTL)

Anyway, if you guys were wondering where I went to for MGP, I was actually talking to four teachers in one go. First is Miss Tan, then I went on to Mr Reghu and then the (you-think-he's-scary-but-he-isn't) Mr Quah, then Mr Wee.

Basically, the results of the talk was:
1. I was made to take a break from coding.

I don't know if it's such a good idea, but I did, yea. Though, sadly, I can't achieve that "not thinking about programming" at all state, I think I do feel a lot better than Thursday's meltdown. At least, today I was able to play around with VIDLE and do a bit of Python experimenting, which is never that bad a thing I guess.

2. I had to "kill" some teammates.

Basically, Mr Wee detected some abnormalities -- I mean, weird style thing in my programming, damned that abnormality term from Trauma Team o.o! -- and hauled me into his office to ask. I forgot to tell him that there were object classes made by hairy, but in the end that class was of little utility to me as well...

As for foque, I'm not sure. Apparently the teachers already knew something about him not having done work, iunno. I can't say he "didn't do work" per se, but when I collate the code he gave me from the eventual code inside the program, I came to an unenviable conclusion that he indeed did not do much coding; I did.

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Then again, if anything, I must face up to the fact that as a leader I probably am the worst at pacing, and working with others. I was told, and I acknowledge, that I may have ideas that are too ambitious for most especially for assignments like these.

Like creating a music game for J2ME when everyone's doing dodge, for example o.o;

Then again... I don't know. Was I wrong to expect too much to begin with? *shrug*

Tomorrow's Japanese oral exam. I'm nervous that I will fall flat as we only clocked one good hour of practice overall. There is one thing I dislike now though, that Lina is now just over-reacting to everything about me. I mean, well, I don't know what her likes and dislikes are, but I am very, very put off by the way she just pushes me away even when I don't really mean to get all that close to her. I do tease her a little bit with the things I say, but they're flippant anyway; she takes it like I mean it and the subsequent reaction is almost like someone who can't wait to bury his most hated enemy.

For a young woman getting close to 20, don't you think that's a tad immature? Even tsunderes don't act that way, for the sake of Jesus H. Christ and Buddha B.

Anyway, that's all I have for now. Later...